March 30, 2015
Tapi mereka lupa, selagi bergelar manusia yang hidup, ada hati dan perasaan.
Kadang-kadang, bukan happy pun. Sekadar nak tutup mulut orang, malas nak berkongsi. Bukan nak tunjuk kuat atau tak nak dianggap lemah, cuma malas nak tengok orang buat muka simpati.
Tapi itulah, bila muka tidak beriak, orang lupa yang aku ini manusia juga. Punya perasaan. Hentam saja dengan panahan bicara, and act like nothing had happened.
They were expecting me to smile, all the time.
They were expecting me not to cry, all the time.
Therefore, I can't express myself. What do I feel, what do I want, what do I think. It doesn't matter to them.
March 27, 2015
Sometimes it is about making someone else happy. And you'll be happy too.
I prayed for my sister to excel in her studies, and she made it. And I on the other hand, couldn't afford to get what I've been dreaming.
But I'm happy for my sister.
It would not be this way if I work slightly harder. Maybe there will be some difference.
Maybe. Maybe not. Maybe.
March 9, 2015
So, one day, she texted me and said, 'Why don't we both just download the movie and watch it at the same time? We can turn on our webcams, so it was as if we're watching it together.'