March 30, 2015

They saw me as a carefree girl, maybe. Living life to the fullest, without any problem.

Tapi mereka lupa, selagi bergelar manusia yang hidup, ada hati dan perasaan.

Kadang-kadang, bukan happy pun. Sekadar nak tutup mulut orang, malas nak berkongsi. Bukan nak tunjuk kuat atau tak nak dianggap lemah, cuma malas nak tengok orang buat muka simpati.

Tapi itulah, bila muka tidak beriak, orang lupa yang aku ini manusia juga. Punya perasaan. Hentam saja dengan panahan bicara, and act like nothing had happened.

They were expecting me to smile, all the time.

They were expecting me not to cry, all the time.

Therefore, I can't express myself. What do I feel, what do I want, what do I think. It doesn't matter to them.

Entah.